A Dose of Introspection

I'm going through a rather tumultuous period in my life. Not the bad kind, no, the good.

My humble abode is a whopping 1,335 square feet with basic necessities like AC and heat, a stable roof (I think?), clean running water, etc. Not bad if you live in a 3rd world society? But just slightly better than mediocre in "our" society.

So I'm in the process of "cleaning house" to make way for major renovations. As I am reluctant to making decisions, what do I do with all the books I've accumulated over 47 years of living?

The first thing that occurred to me is that, Kurt, you must keep some of them! After all, are not the books on your shelf basically a window into you?

Yes, but books occupy space and collect lots of dust.....

If I want to reveal to somebody who I am, well, I'll just talk to them?

Nothing Worthwhile Should Be Easy

Imagine technology allowed for any idiot to fly a commercial jet just by pressing a button to summon a robot to land the 200 ton object? Or an imbecile replacing a human heart just by pressing a button to summon a drone surgeon? (Think Mike Judge's brilliant movie, Idiocracy).

This seems to be where we're headed? Everybody is equal, right?

No, everybody is NOT equal and entitled to the same privilege as others.....

People that work harder than others, and, God bless'em, those that got the "right" genes should prosper.

The others that just don't have "smarts" because mom and dad handed down to them rotten genes have no right to claim any bounty that others justifiably deserve!

What this implies about God, I don't know?

LIFE IS UNFAIR, GET OVER IT!

Finders Keepers, Losers Weepers

July 10, 2019.....top end of the Perimeter Highway, I-285, Atlanta. Apparently either a back door failed and/or an employee failed to latch it correctly?

Cash started pouring out the back door of the money truck on one of ATL's busiest roadways. When I say money, I'm talking to the tune of $200,000. People stopped, went into nearby woods where much of it landed, and started claiming their "unearned" bounty.

Being philosophical, I'm not going into some BULLSHIT diatribe about how dishonest many of us are.

No, the first thing that came to my mind are some introspective questions.....

1) If "I" could get away with taking something that wasn't mine and "I" REALLY wanted it and/or could use it without any repercussions, would I? I don't know? I believe, or at least really WANT to believe that I would do the right thing.....return it. After all, it's not mine!

2) Why does my conscience (FYI I'm an atheist) compel me to do things against my carnal wishes? It's 2019, and EVERYTHING is being watched! So for those that grabbed some of that bounty, you WILL be caught!

3) I remember a time when I took $50 of cash out of an ATM and got $60. Did it again for $30, got $40. And again. Apparently the "money person" fucked up. Must've put $20s in the $10 slot? Mistakes happen. The first thing I thought before claiming my $30 bounty was, "that guy or girl is probably going to lose his or her job over this"? I fuck up all the time, it's part of learning?

My overarching point is this: do I "tend" to do things honestly because I'm sincerely honest, or because I fear somebody is watching me? God? Cameras? (today)

I DON'T KNOW?